Saturday, July 31, 2021

Lately in Windom (July 2021)

We spent a lot of time in the car the first part of the summer, running around to all sorts of activities. Cashel was obviously less than enthused lol

He was ALMOST as unenthused as Kins here, showing off her fancy new nails...and her new haircut, which she gave herself in an incindent where I was looking for the scissors to trim her bangs, and apparently she got tired of waiting and went to town with the clippers I had taken out to do the boys' hair.

I don't buy these often, but when I do, I'm suddenly "the best Mommy in the whole wide world!"

She loves taking pics with her Mama.

My favorite weekend mornings are the ones where I have time to just sit on the back deck and enjoy some iced coffee.

This is so very true. Lots of changes coming in the near future to help facilitate this.

Also this. I'm always at work on each and every one of these. It's hard to change a mindset you've had for years, but when you're the only parent of your kids left, you have to make some pretty significant life changes to "fix" a broken you.

WHEN did she get so grown up??!?

We had lunch with Grandpa, Grandma Pam and Aunt Jess at New City Buffet on Beach Bash day. Ya think we could get Cashel to smile a tinge? Half the time, HE'S the one who holds up the pictures these days lol

We all love the new carwash at the Kwik Trip in Worthington. We go through whenever we go down there (which isn't super often, but still).

The little two just loved reading with Grandpa and Grandma. Thinking it may be time for a littles weekend at Grandma and Grandpa's soon! It has been a pretty harried 2021 so far, but the tides will turn soon enough!

The kids loved playing at the splash pad at Beach Bash

I love how much more clear my pics are when I drag out my big old DSLR.

It's tough being the "big kid" sometimes. The boys waited about half an hour for this, made sure to be first in line, and then no one managed to dunk the guy. The little two got to go push the target anyway and dunk the guy, but Cashel, being the "big kid" was just too big to be given the honor, and man - that was a hard blow for him. Growing up isn't all rainbows and puppy dogs, huh?

Man, at this point, I was feeling pretty miserable. I was SO exhausted and the kids just didn't even hardly eat their food, and I was hardly able to eat with what I later found out was the beginnings of tonsilitis, which came on fairly suddenly, but the good news is we survived!

One of the incredible parts about the kids getting older, however, is that when I'm so tired, Cashel is able to do things like take Ryan to go get rainbow ice cream while I stay with the other kids. It's amazing!

Their favorite part of Beach Bash is the rainbow icecream, which they usually get in a cone and is super messy.

Sent him with $20 to get ice cream (assuming he'd get one for each kid), but he came back with 2 bowls of ice cream and FOUR containers of cotton candy instead. I kinda snapped at him, since now the other two didn't have ice cream, and I was out of cash (with more in the car). The other two were throwing such a huge fit about not getting ice cream that Cashel ended up going to the car to get my wallet for it. Mommin' ain't easy, guys. Apparently Cashel'n ain't easy either lol

All is good now lol

WHEN did her legs get so dang long??

We ended up going home early as I just couldn't handle it anymore as I was just completely SHOT. After snuggling up at home for a TWO HOUR nap (unheard of!), we ran out to the local fireworks at a nearby lake instead.

I absolutely love how much my little lady loves to snuggle me.

Oh, those bangs lol

I haven't had many moments to get out to the grave this summer to just veg like I'd like to. I feel at peace there. It's this strange feeling where I don't quite know what to think or how to feel, but just being there feels good. Sometimes I just let tears roll down my face. Sometimes I sob in these short little bursts. Sometimes I talk to Mark and tell him what's going on in life (even if I know he isn't there). Just being close to a place where some part of him still exists just feels good. I was SO glad that I had pre-arranged a trial run with a couple new babysitters for that afternoon, because man, I needed the break!

After a ridiculous amount of napping and watching Netflix all day with the kids, I mustered up enough energy to drive on down to the fireworks in Worthington to watch them, then come home. It was actually a really great night, and the fireworks were so beautiful!

GIMME ALL THE MEDS!! I finally was upright and functioning by Monday around noon. Can I just say...THANK YOU FOR SCIENCE!! I have absolutely zero clues as to how on earth I would survive as a solo Mom without medication at times. Amoxicillian had me eating by noon, and that just blows my mind!

The rest of that day, we just vegged. I sat in my chair in the lawn, turned up my Amazon Echo in the garage and watched the kids climb the trees, play basketball, wash the jet ski, wash their bikes, spray each other. This is what summer should be like.

The last of my monkeys to need my help getting up into the tree!

My girl Jill came on down for a bit, and oh I just love how she loves us. It's adorable to see my kids interact with her. Love you, dear friend!

My kids have honestly not cared to help me in the kitchen nearly as much lately, so it was fun to make up some cookie dough with them.

Cashel found a fan...and then a fitted sheet. Made himself a little cooler room there lol

The second weekend of the month, we went down to the farm in Iowa to throw a little joint surprise bday party for my two bachelor uncles (my Dad's brothers). This was me enjoying a cup of coffee (or 3) before the day got started. There are perks to being an early riser on the farm.

I am SO glad to see my sister and Michael fix the place up. The new roof on the barn and the chicken coop look so incredible!

The best part about the farm is all the cousins...and kittens lol

These two are always up to no good lol

My Aunt and Uncle from Tennessee also came down for the weekend, so we surprised my Aunt (my Mom's sister) with a little surprise party as well.

Cousins (minus 2)

We had a great time catching up with some of my extended family from my Dad's side at the party!

Dave graced us with a lil 515 as well - love their OJ IPA.

Birthday boys!

Time on the farm is just the best! You never know what you'll find with 17 (to 19) cousins out and about lol

I feel like this just looks like a recipe for disaster lol

Goodness, I love these people!

My four brothers and two of my uncles out surveying the property. My Dad would have LOVED this so much! I miss him dearly!

More of the Ropte family!

Dude - my sister does it up right for movie night!

For 3 mornings, I got to turn ALL of my alarms off! We met up for a 3 day getaway with the Drouins (one of our fave families we've met in this FTD journey) in the countryside outisde of LaCrosse, WI. I'll do a recap of it before too long, but it was wonderful!

The view from the back deck was stunning! It brought me back to Mark and I's visit to Waimea Valley on the Big Island of Hawaii back in 2013 with a 15 month old Cashel.

I love these people so much! ♥

Mojitos are definitely my drink of choice this summer. Jenna and I got to escape for an evening with our kiddos when we hired a babysitter for the kiddos off care.com, and we had a wonderful time!

I honestly have no idea why I don't make french toast more often at our house. It's one of the kids' AND my favorite breakfasts, period. Mine are my absolute favorite (a recipe I found on pinterest a number of years ago), but I haven't made them in months. We got some boxed ones on vacation that weren't too bad, but I'm thinking I need to add these back into the rotation.

I've finally finished "the book" (Calling in "The One"), and if this doesn't sum up a good chunk of it, I don't know what does. I never quite understood why my Mom wanted to be alone when we were kids, but as a solo Mama to 4 kids, I get it more now than ever before lol If someone is gonna jump into our lives, my reminder to myself, and promise to my kids is that they will only make it better in every facet. If not, there's simply no point.

This too. Oh man. I've struggled pretty much my entire life with stiffling joy in order to not upset people. I'm working to stop doing that, and in the process, I've certainly gotten some comments. I need to continually remind myself that anyone who doesn't want to see myself and my kids joyful and thriving is NOT worthy of presence in our lives.

The Friday after we got back from our trip, I had planned to have the kids stay overnight with their favorite former daycare provider, so I took a little solo trip to Mankato to pick up some artwork I had framed and had a leisurely evening putzing around town, grabbing some sushi to go, and taking a nice walk out at the Williams Nature Center. The older I get, the more I realize that I like my own company the most.

One of the things I've gained from this whole process has been my morning Bible study times. I've learned so much about myself and as a result, begun asking myself this question every morning. I've had a bit of a hiatus, which is evident when I feel like I'm starting to come unraveled at the seams again, so I started it up again. Most mornings, I end up putting things like "more water" or "better snacks" or "more downtime" or "more time with Jesus". I also started a Blessings journal around the same time, and some mornings, it's vague "a warm home" or "a healthy family". Some days, it's far more specific, like "a full Bergamot Woods candle" or "Kona Coffee with just the right splash of Sweet Cream Silk Creamer". Sometimes focusing on what we need and feeling blessed with what we already have is the best therapy.

I am absolutely in LOVE with how my canvas turned out! I bought the canvas print from Leonid Afmerov's estate earlier this year, and just finally picked up the framed canvas from Hobby Lobby. I have a plan for where to put it, but for now, it covers the mirror in my bedroom.

I seldom get peaceful mornings in my home without needing to clean up everything, but just to sit there. I am SO grateful I had that opportunity. This is my favorite place.

That evening when I got home with the kids, we roasted marshmallows over a nice bonfire.

What a weirdo lol

It isn't often that my kids jump at the opportunity to help clean, but typically whenever the vacuum is involved, they're fighting over who gets to use it lol

This guy got his first cavity filled, and I'm pretty sure he's going to do whatever it takes to never have to have another one filled again lol He sat extremely still, but literally had a puddle of tears welled up in his ears when they were finished.

For a little lady who refused to even put her head anywhere near the water last year with parent-child lessons, this little lady was all about swimming lessons this summer! She just finished today, and she did amazing!!

Man, it has been quite the past handful of months here. Summer, I've determined, is a rough time to try to keep a decent schedule as far as the gym is concerned. I've got some work to do again.

It cracks me up that when the kids get money to get snacks at the pool, their go-to ends up being microwave popcorn lol They LOVE popcorn. It's crazy! It's like "Oh, it's 93 degrees outside, let's eat hot popcorn!!"

So...this happened. More on that in an upcoming post!

Are these not the cutest? I ordered them off Zulily, and am super bummed that they don't come in the next size up, as my toes spill over the ends a tinge, but I'll gladly wear them like that.

'Tis the season!

Family swim time!!

Best investment in 2021 so far lol

Favorite mug at present!

Kinsley started her first dance class (dance technique) in July, and oh my goodness was it adorable! We had to watch on Zoom, but it was the cutest thing EVER, and she is SO in love with it!

I keep trying, and I know it does look a lot better, but dangit! When you spend 2-3 hours organizing something and end up decluttering and removing a huge box full of stuff, you'd think it'd look significantly less cluttered, don't you think?

It's that Farmers' Market time of year!

Summer nights :)

I'm finally finished up with my other studies, so I'm digging into this Beth More one! So far, it's really good!

We got a couple new air mattresses since our old ones were no more, and well...let's just say that a double decker bed is pretty exciting lol

My sweet baby girl ♥

Kinsley is a pretty slow eater. So while the boys devoured their hot dogs on the way over to our favorite hiking trail, Kins still had hers left lol

This kid is just such a joyful guy! Love him so much!

This is pretty much what happens when I tell the kids to get together for a picture lol

It's funny, because on a daily basis, they're like this with each other a lot (sometimes aggressively and needing interference), but ask them to pose for a pic like this, and you'd think you were pulling teeth.

Cashel was SO excited for his week at Camp Shetek! Last year he was a lot more leary as he didn't know what to expect, but this year he was STOKED! He had such a wonderful week!!

Girl, YUM!!

EVERYTHING needs a band aid around here lol In fact, I think for Kinsley's birthday, she's going to be getting some band aids lol

I absolutely adore watching her sleep. My favorite is when she comes out and snuggles up while I'm doing devotions in the morning and falls back asleep.

This girl seriously just exudes joy! She was SO excited to be such a big girl and go off the diving board lol She passed prek level 1 lessons and will be on to level 2 next summer!

Ryan woke me up around quarter to 5am this particular morning, and I realized I had fallen asleep putting Kinsley to bed and hadn't even showered or anything the night before like I usually do. But look at all that sleep!! Oh man!!

It isn't often I actually sit down to eat when I'm in Mankato, but this particular day, I did, and it was amazing!

Pretty toes with some pretty ladies after they got off work!

It's a heck of a lot of fun having a little girl lol

I'm gonna have to re-channel my girly girl here soon if she's gonna be doing dance! I haven't done a french braid in years!

She absolutely LOVES going!!

Oh man, the teenage years are gonna be fun.

I took the boys to Arnold's Park down in Okoboji, Iowa for the day, and we left Kinsley with her fave babysitter. We had such a gret day, even if I was completely shot most of the day.

Ryan was tall enough for *almost* all of the rides. He missed the rollercoaster by about 4 inches, (48" for that one, vs. 42" for the rest). We all reminisced about Cashel's first rollercoaster ride with Daddy on our last big vacation before he got more noticeably sick (it was very obvious to me at the time) at Sea World in San Diego.

Bumper cars was a BIG hit - Ryan was THRILLED pretty much the whole day!

How did they all get SO BIG!?

There's always that one...

I think Kendrick and Ryan look pretty spot on, but Cashel? I'm not sure I would have guessed that one.

Somehow, they convinced me to go to the Splash Bash in town when we got back home. It made for a LONG day.

Goodness, I just love these two. I mean, ALL the kids are so good with encouraging each other some of the time, but Cashel has really begun to shine so much more brightly.